..❤ Honesty の Talk ❤..

received a good news in this afternoon.
because i received a letter from my college VU
it is about congratulation me get good mark in my AIS last sem
hehe~ will it be post on the board of VU?? hope it will be^^
motivate me must take better result in this coming final exam~~
i will~~!!!!! i want get the letter again^^

at my aunty house, as usual, my desa lifestyle
stay at house for whole day
today, helped my sister did her presentation
prepared the report and presentation script for her
hope can helped her can get good result ba~

watch 宫心计 today, i like it..
recently watch the gossip girl season one (my sister introduced to me),
not bad too~
桃花小妹 not so nice actually..
still the same boring romantic drama as previous


my title..
❤..honesty..❤
actually got some words for two guys that appears in my life
those around me, closer to me will know who i talking now.


to yip:
from last night until now..
i noticed those u did to me, felt that you are trying to treat me better
everytime, u will try to help me
no matter helped carried my luggage or wanna helped me edit my sister works
u try to helped me all the time, reduce my burden

i know what you worried about now and this afternoon,
i had answered all your question
honestly my worries are much more than my love to you
i scare of get hurt~ scare to get disappointed, scare for waiting alone
scare of quarrel, scare of my dreams no come true, scare of holding hopes myself

i know you are trying your best to become perfect for me
but now my worries still there..
i dun know when it will gone
i dun know how long it need to take to disappear
sometime i will worry once u changed but my heart still same like now
how going on?? do you think of this problem??
u asked me dun lost my hopes and confidence on you
but i not well understand my heart.. maybe i too pessimism


to vincent:
sorry to hurt you again and again
hope now you can more concentrate on your studies
on your final exam
i know what you disappointed with me
i didnt give you any single chance start from that day
but for him, i give him much more than you
i dun noe why i did so much, changed so much for him

now, i try to protect myself
i hope u can also protect yourself.. dun wait for me anymore,
you are nice person sure will get someone who better than me, love you more
worth for you to take care of her, love her, protect her

i wont be the one that worth for you to continue waiting for me
coz i just will bring those unhappiness, disappointed and anger to you
sorry for always make you sad..


ok~ i finished all i want to say to you all
i want to be honest to you all..
although i cant fully write down all my feelings and opinion here
but hope you can understand about it

i am a bad girl.. actually.. no suitable to be the soul mate
always hurt people.. haiz.. so~~
i better dun touched this kind of these things..
i dun like to hurt people especially his heart.