confuse

slept until 12.30pm.. i really slept for half day
took my breakfast and practiced my violin
(my aunty asked~ so i practiced it early~~~~~)
until my finger now still so pain >.<

den watch the Japanese drama, 我的帅气管家
repeat one part den get my attention again~
(why these movie will be like tat?? 1st time experience)
keep felt those words they said, the meaning behind that
我现在选择放弃
你根本不懂我的意思
我知道
一直担心什么时候会不见
孤单一人想放弃的心情 我都懂
但是现在放弃 一切都会结束
你想和他在一起不是吗？
让他一直陪着你不是吗？
只要拼命争取就好了
加油 别放弃

this movie, sometimes will make me feel tat
i got that feeling too.. i understand and experience before
want to give up, but really hope that not end up like that
however, i tried and tried,
tired, exhausted, disappointed, sadness, cry~
make me cant continue trying~
hope to see changes,
but until the end, all i hope wont come true
so, tired for waiting
tired for suffer the sadness and no mood to study
tired do repeat this kind of things again and again

today, did something..
lock all my hopes and wishes..
so i no need to keep waiting here..
until one day~~ will i unlock it and bring back my happiness..
or i use another key to open another door??